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At that point I just felt like, what am I doing? It occurred to me that this was one of the reasons I got married in the first place, to not feel so anxious and powerless, like the men had all the control.
But then I ended up feeling that way in my marriage. Now, I was feeling that way in trying to have an affair. I was looking for something else, sex yes, but also, a connection.
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